There has been a bit of brew ha ha recently about leaked videos and documents and such. I must admit that mentally it would be nice if I could have the confidence of knowing people would accept me as I am, and understand that my experience differs from theirs. The illusion of security in permanence can create suffering especially when we have expectations of others being fastened in permanence just the way we would like them. We liked someone before they were gay but would feel like they were "really" happy if they would just discover they weren't and be like us. The same goes for people who may not believe anymore. Are you saying I am not happy because of legitimate observation, or are you saying it because someone who you respect in authority told you that I wasn't happy? Why do I need to conform to your expectations to be truly happy?
Impermanence means the unknown, and in many the unknown is a great fear. Fear leads to a desire for control, and desire, well, we all know what desire brings. I can't change what others desire for me. So, how do I bring this home and stop desiring that they won't desire? I guess it is just letting the chips fall. Acknowledging that nothings is permanent, all compound things break down. People will desire no matter what I do, if it is not one thing it is another and by even hoping for acceptance, am I not caught up in the same desire? It's time to let go again.
Seems like letting go is a continual process. That makes sense though because impermanence is a continuous condition, permanent in it's impermanence ironically. Change is the only constant.
Impermanence means the unknown, and in many the unknown is a great fear. Fear leads to a desire for control, and desire, well, we all know what desire brings. I can't change what others desire for me. So, how do I bring this home and stop desiring that they won't desire? I guess it is just letting the chips fall. Acknowledging that nothings is permanent, all compound things break down. People will desire no matter what I do, if it is not one thing it is another and by even hoping for acceptance, am I not caught up in the same desire? It's time to let go again.
Seems like letting go is a continual process. That makes sense though because impermanence is a continuous condition, permanent in it's impermanence ironically. Change is the only constant.
